t h e r e m i n i s c e n t s t a r - -
v2.o -star.
thereminiscentstar .
portia jolene ; posh * lene * (:
LALAPOLYPOCKETCHOONG ;
going 19 .
nafa svaf .
attached . =)
they call me starshine ; tinkerbell ; queenLALA*
191286
broken; and worthless .
hyper .
not what i seem to be .
tend to lose myself in thoughts .
daydreamerr .
sadistic .
black ; hotpeenk ; orange ; white ; purple .
lamee . extremely at times .
comforts people ; but yearns comfort from friends .
cynical .
imperfect .
stubborn .
bossy .
extremely fragile ;
has a soft mushy heart .
am redundant whereever i am . =)
yearns to fly *
je'taime .
the Man Up there . =))
him. =D
churchies .
EEYOREE !
monokuro boo .
cinnamoroll .
starrs .
my telescope . also known as my WIFE . =]
butterflies .
qing tian wawa .
windmills .
carousels .
dancing .
clubbing .
esplanade .
east coast .
southern most point .
changi airport .
marina south .
to be a unique !
blowing bubbles .
jewellery making . =D
taking black&white photographs .
photoshopp !
princess .
cousins shannon&jamie !
sad songs .
piano ; sax ; guitar . (but can't play any)
Sunday, April 04, 2004
i'm so LOSING IT. like. big time. major. sigh. staying at home's kinda feels as though i'm in the midst of some major warfare. gees. and so they say. life just seems to get better each time you stumble. ha. doesn't IT? *shrugs.
i wish everything isn't real. tell me. is this my surreal world?
church was.. alright i guess. reached damn early. like. 8+? and i almost got caught in the rain? haha. sigh* i miss those times i would just. be so happy. just cos it rained. what happened to the old me? she's gone. =)
ahhh wells. i promised myself i won't reach into touchy topics. but it seems like i can't help it. sigh. i feel so emptied out. i don't know what i want? what i'm feeling.. is just a major mess. part of me wants to figure out what the hell is wrong with me. but part of me doesn't. its like. something inside me's telling me that. well. if i do. things might turn out worse. bahhh. i dunno how i'm supposed to tell this to ANYONE. i feel. kinda empty. especially towards the spiritual side of me. okay. people who know me LONG ENOUGH will know i kinda don't reach into these kinda topics? ESPECIALLY publically. like. on a blog. gees. =| seriously. i felt kinda lost during service today. like. really lost. sigh* i should start talking to the MAN more. bad case of communication really. =| SIGH*
here i am.. resting in Your love.. all that i want is to touch Your heart.. Your words are filled with grace.. Your prescence fills this place.. i know i am safe.. in my Father's love.. You are my hope and my refuge.. in You i know who i am.. Father my arms are wide open.. when i am weak You are strong.. Your words are filled with grace.. Your prescence fills this place.. i know i am safe.. in my Father's love.. You are my hope and my refuge.. in You i know who i am.. Father my arms are wide open.. when i am weak You are strong.. all that i have Lord i give it to You.. i put my life in Your hands.. more than a friend.. You're the reason i live.. i'm gonna praise You forever.. You are my hope and my refuge.. in You i know who i am.. Father my arms are wide open.. when i am weak You are strong.. Your words are filled with grace.. Your prescence fills this place.. i know i am safe.. in my Father's love.. You are my hope and my refuge.. in You i know who i am.. Father my arms are wide open.. when i am weak You are strong..
alright. if you don't already get my point. i'm DEPRESSED. cos i well. i dunno why. just. too many factors contributing to it i guess. hmm.. maybe its the songs i've been listening to that lead to this abrupt awakening. ha. i've been listening to hillsongs again. remember who was the one who intro-ed it to me? ha. the very first song i ever knew from hillsong was beautiful. deeply in love with you. beautiful song. its from youth alive's first album i think. and i used to think the band who sung it was called one youth alive!? ._." haha. me and my nonense at THAT point of time. anyways. i think. maybe ally's right. maybe i'm just plain and simply lack of lurveee. blee. and she said i should get to know more people. oops. i guess she forgot i'm still in my shell. sighs*
i so wanna cry. like now. =(
sighs* pardon me for my hugeeeeeee font. blah. i should stop. don't think people would wanna know bout how i'm feeling and all. afterall. don't think anyone comes here anymore. sighs* through it all.. =\
In my life You`ve heard me say
I love you
How do I show you it`s true
hear my heart, it longs for more of you..
I`ve fallen deeply in love with you..
You have stolen my heart
I`m captivated by you
Never will you and I part
I`ve fallen deeply in love with you
You and I, together forever
Nothing can, stand in the way
My love for you, grows stronger
each new day.
I`ve fallen deeply in love with you
You have stolen my heart
I`m captivated by you
Never will you and I part
I`ve fallen deeply in love with you
You have stolen my heart
I`m captivated by you
Never will you and I part
I`ve fallen deeply in love with you
wonderful song eh? really it. touched me since the very first time i heard it. and it still does. sighs* brings back memories.
;elysium.
10:15:00 PM
eternitywithYOU.
Zen Neeon .
new laptop .
Christian Dior - Dolce Vita .
Corrinne May's 2 albums .
Plumb's albums .
Dishwalla's albums .
Nicholas Spark's books .
Levis 501 & Diva Jeans .
Chronicles of Narnia .
a new starglobe . =|
my daisy rock star bass .
